Friends, I am praying that this new year is a season of healing, peace, and open doors in your life. As I was seeking God about what to hone in on for 2020 I heard four simple words in my spirit: It’s Time to Heal.
God has been leading me on a journey toward healing for all of 2019. The details of my life’s story would read like a Lifetime movie script with betrayal, heartbreak, and a touch of crazy. In the end, just like a great love story, good wins and the heroine (me) comes out victorious. If you spoke to me just over a year ago, I might not have sounded so optimistic.
The last three years have been one traumatic loss after the next. First my health, then my mom, then finances and so on. For the first time in my life at the end of 2018 I experienced depression. It crept in ever so subtle and before I knew it I found my self feeling hopeless and fatigued. Just when I was sinking and it looked like all hope was lost, like a superhero God reached down and grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the quick sand. He rescued me.
How He rescued me will be the subject of the next blog (sorry), but why He rescued me was because of His unfailing love for me. He had a plan and purpose for me and He needed me to fulfill it. Today, I’m learning to see every experience as an opportunity for transformation. I know every part of my story can be used to help someone else and for ministry. God created you and I with such purpose, power, and vision that we should never doubt His love for us in the midst of the most traumatic events in our lives.
This is where my place of healing began: when I started to realize I cannot be separated from His love. The tears I’ve cried, the pain, the bad decisions, and the heartbreak don‘t separate me from His love. In every good movie, there is a turning point; it is the point of self realization. Until we understand how we are so loved by God and what He created us for, we can never truly heal. When I saw clearly that He would not allow one tear to be wasted and that my life was driven by His purpose, my thoughts changed and my healing started.
Here’s the promise you and I can cling to in Romans 8:38, “And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Today, think on His love for you and let go of self hate, guilt, bitterness, and unforgiveness. Allow God to come in so your healing can begin.